|All alone in this home...
||[Nov. 23rd, 2004|07:45 am]
|||||I miss Lisa...||]|
|||||Nirvana : Rape Me||]|
I hate it. I hate it all. Especially my home life. They just keep hurting me. It keeps getting worse. I'm scared. Theres only a few things I live for. Lisa, Josh, My band, Music, and deviantART. Maybe a few other people (who don't live anywhere near me). Thats a basic list. Now lets see. Lisa is so far away and it makes me cry. a lot. Josh's mom is being weirwd about me and him hanging out lately and we don't know why. The band isn't doing so well, seeing as for some reason I'm the only one who cares all that much. dA is bogging me down with way too many deviations, and I haven't submitted in forever. *emo sigh* I miss Lisa. I LOVE YOU LISA.
2004-11-23 09:50 pm (UTC)
your life is obviously in turmoil. have you ever considered suicide? i mean, a beautiful enlightened soul such as your own shouldn't be forced to deal with the misery of such a hard, cold world. don't conform, don't love life and enjoy it, embrace the BAD times, as you are already doing so wonderfully. you are living life the way it should be lived, not at all. surround yourself with others who feel as melancholy and lost as yourself, and with as much reason. your trials and tribulations are greater than any other humans, fuck the starving kids, fuck the dying, you're the TRULY starving, TRULY dying, your soul is starving for something more spectacular than this or any world could ever offer you. You've touched my heart with your plight, how you many to struggle through your many problems is beyond anything i could ever fathom. you are truly xcoreemoxcorexxxxcorexemox to the extreme.
And by that, i mean get a fucking life and get over your petty little problems. Live life you stupid bastard, stop wallowing in your own self pity, cause you're the only one that really cares. Your emo friends are just waiting for you to cry for them when they're pretending to cry for you. Grow up or kill yourself, cause you're already acting like you're dead.
this journal is for MY FUCKING FREINDS to comment on and know whats going on. im not fucking wallowing in self pity or any other shit. i just really hate this shit. of course, youre probably an ass wipe yourself. so not that you would understnad. go fucking light yourself on fire doused in kerosene and frolick into traffic.
Where the hell did i say ANYTHING about you and lisa? Where did I said TRUE love ends? Where did i say I was right and my feelings apply to everyone? I didnt, did I say i was talking to you about lisa and you? No I did not. What I said was not shit, it was how I feel, and what I am going threw. You don't know the situation I'm in , you don't know whats happening, so before you put your input in get your facts straight or shut the hell up.
No Carol. Look. It's as simple as this. If it ends, it's not love.